Happy New Year 2011

Well it is 2011. Here we go again. I am trying to start the new year better than I ended the last one. I started cleaning out old paperwork. Emily and I rearranged the living room last Sunday after Brad and John hooked up my new TV and DVD.
Now I just need to keep up the momentum and not get lazy again. If I just do some everyday it will be done...well not soon, but sooner than if I just leave it like I did last year.
I had lunch with Kim today and she made me cry. We were talking about Ruth loosing weight and she told me that she worries about me and that I was her best friend and she didn't want to loose me. So there we were in Blackeye Pea, both of us teary and trying not to bawl.
I can not make a resolution to loose weight but I can try to eat better, go to the grocery, and not eat so much fast food. I got something from Weight Watchers about free registration so I might go there and try to get started. At least I can find out how much I weigh.
So here we go 2011. Let's make it a good one.

Christmas ideas

So, Christmas is less than 4 months away. Where does the time go? This is my first Christmas in 30 years that I don't have my SIP check to supplement my Christmas spending. And it makes me sad. I love buying Christmas presents! I love trying to find the perfect gift for each person. I don't like the actual shopping, but the buying, I love. And the wrapping, and giving, etc.
This year I am going to try to make gifts. I have been searching the internet for ideas. I think I have found a few good ones. Now I just have to find a way to pay for them. I hope that Brad has more work for me. And I need to be careful about going out to eat, and when I do, keep it to a minimum. No extras.
I think I am going to have to put Martha (the cleaning lady) off the month of October.
So, wish me luck. Frugal is not my strong suit. But I hope it will be!!!!

Hi, It's me again!

It has been over a year since my last blog. Teri and Jana have inspired me to try again. They are both really good writers. I am not. But I wish I was. I want to write a children's book. I haven't decided on a subject yet. I keep going back to something about adoption.
I was adopted by my step father and it was like I was always his child. When I think of my dad and my sisters it never really dawns on me that they are "step". My sister Martha is just, well, my sister.
I do think about my bio dad sometimes. I looked him up online and he lives in Gatesville. I have a brother, Russell, that lives in Houston. I don't have much family so it would be nice to at least meet them. But I am afraid and feel guilty. I am afraid of being rejected by them. And I feel guilty for wanting to meet them because of my dad. He loved me and treated me like I was his, and I don't want anyone to think that I don't love him or appreciate what he did for me.
So this blog turned into something different than I thought. But, I guess that's what a blog is all about. Just running off and letting whatever comes out come out.
Callie and I are off to bed. Night Night, Sleep Tight, Don't let the bedbugs bite!

bad week or at least thursday...

sometime wednesday night or early thursday morning my bank decided to charge me a $30 fee. not sure why. i only had $27 in the account so when they took $30 it made me in the red. they took out $3 something and then a withdrawl came through early for $297 so they took out another $30. they transferred money from savings, $4, and charged me $3 to do it. then another $5 something comes through this morning and another $30 fee. i am now $336 in the hole before my check gets deposited. i hate banks right now.
so i have $60 less cash to start out. i was already to my limit trying to pay bills. i need help!!!
i keep asking god to be a little more clear about what to do. i am sure i have been told what to do, i just don't know which solution is correct. i even bought a lottery ticket this week. not one number.
i hope next week is better.

last 17 days

it's been 17 days since my last blog. what has happened? not much. lets see...

friday the 8th and saturday the 9th was the women's retreat. we went to spring hill retreat. it was really nice. phyllis speck was the leader. she did a good job. she used some of the nooma dvds. i love that set.

yesterday was jeanette underwoods wedding shower. quite a turn out. she got lots of great stuff. jeannette and jim are a really cute couple.

this afternoon was a concert at church. jacie's niece, anne, is a musician and she, leigh, gerald, rick and a friend of anne's played drums. it was a really good concert.

i am broke as usual. i can't seem to get caught up and get ahead. i end up a week short on funds.

tough time

obviously i'm not very good at this blogging thing. i forget to blog and when i remember i don't have much to say. this is a boring life. but i think i have decided that boring is not a bad thing. i would rather have a boring life than one filled with DRAMA. i have know drama queens/kings and i just don't have the energy for it.
i like my laid back lifestyle. usually the most drama i have is whatever drama my friends are going through. i think i'm a good listener. i try to be a good listener. i hope i'm a good listener.

nada

nothing going on. i'm just writing something to write something. i went yesterday morning to the parsley's house for a breakfast meeting. everything homemade. why can't i have a beautiful home and be as organized as joanne parsley? i am so lazy. i am doing something wrong. i just don't know what exactly.